Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

其实,就不爱了。

头四年,是我最开心,甜蜜的时刻。
我们俩做什么事都会跟双方商量,同意了再做。知道做了对方会不快乐,就宁愿不做不去呗。我们俩真的都站在同一条线。
过后,跟朋友出去一趟后,突然“通知”我,你要跟朋友们去美国Work and Travel。心里是不舒服了,因为说好了什么事我们会先商量。不过你说你父母同意了。你只是通知我,不是问我意见。心沉了。不过我知道自己不能自私,只要是没做错事,应该让你出去看看世界。
不过短短3个月后,你在那里有外遇了。更伤心是,死党看见你这样做也不劝你。我在想我也是你们的朋友呀!
也许,你们没把我当做朋友看待吧!
过了这件事,你选择改,我选择原谅。不过已经留下深深的阴影了。我变得不信任你。我知道这需要时间,也需要你的鼓励。我也知道你也变得不耐烦了。
又再过了4年,双方觉得稳定了(可能只是我自作多情),决定结婚了。可是过后你又去泰国玩女人。很累。
让你选。你最后还是选泰国。我还傻到拖了一年,期盼你真的会改。
哪知一天过一天,你也没再来找我。而是3天2天跑去泰国。完全没改到。
难道我们之间真的没什么让你留恋吗?
最后,我放弃了。再等下去是要等几年呢?你这样对我,你觉得我还会对我们的婚姻有信心吗?
还没嫁过去你都不懂得尊重自己的未婚妻,嫁过去了还得了?
现在想起来,嘲笑自己还真大方,未婚夫完全是没把自己当作一回事。1年里不断去找泰国妹。你伤心你生气,你的事。
最重要是他自己快乐。

4年前,我们一起发福了,我肥了,你去找美国女神。
4年后,我瘦了,你去找泰国妹。
其实不是外表的问题,
是因为,不爱了。


Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Heart broken

After hurts by hurts, you re just still stay with him cox you re appreciate, but then,

What's d feeling when your partner say : -"Hey! Can't you don't involve in my work? You re so irritating! " (just because he don't want me to disturb he s having dinner with the trainer, he feel shame to text me
-"The girl is married and I admired her. "Is it cox she's married so you only can admire her? ) down lorrr
-"you always act pity!" (bilalah i act pity?)
-"I'm very dissatisfied with this relationship!" (sad lorrr)
-"can u dont control me?! I don't like to be control! (After 6 years just use this as excuse)

When a heart keep get hurt, it will be full of wound and scars and being hide in the deepest part, once the deepest part been touched accidentally with sensitive words, the tears ll rolling down uncontrollably...

When you need help, you will speak very nicely. After using will be threw aside. 
Is this call materialistic or? 
Anyway m disappointed. I hope one day my heart will be no feeling towards this guy anymore.